Life In The Slow Lane...
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This is a commentary about the slow lane, about the slowing of time since I suffered a severe brain injury while skateboarding with my dog. This is a blog about recovery; about our '82 VW Westfalia. It's about writing, surfing, camping, married life, bleeding ulcers that make you feel old at 32; about family, friends, and my dog Artie; it's about cruising in fourth gear, getting passed by every car and learning to appreciate every second of it.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Day 14: "I Quit"

I hung up the phone after speaking to the mechanic in Ozona and wanted to hit myself. I would have if it weren't for a young kid walking into the daycare facility next to the coffee shop.

In the past, I wouldn't have been so understanding, not in a situation where I am stuck 1,500 miles away from home.

I came back and nearly broke down.I called Aimee and told her the story. She said that she would take care of it. She told me that anyone in this situation would feel the same. I don't agree. I have lost all confidence. I can't make a damn decision and when I do I question it over and over again. I feel like I am at everyone else's mercy, that I have no control over anything. This is new. And sure, this is probably normal for some people but it's not normal for me. I hate always saying that nobody understands but it's the truth and there's nothing I can do to change it.
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4 comments:

  1. AnonymousMay 18, 2011 at 6:32 PM

    Doe,

    A very wise person,(me) once read a quote that helped her through her toughest battle..let me share it with u...





    When things go wrong as they sometimes will;
    When the road you're trudging seems all uphill;
    When the funds are low, and the debts are high
    And you want to smile, but have to sigh;
    When care is pressing you down a bit-
    Rest if you must, but do not quit.

    Success is failure turned inside out;
    The silver tint of the clouds of doubt;
    And you can never tell how close you are
    It may be near when it seems so far;
    So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit-
    It's when things go wrong that you must not quit.

    "Don't Quit," Author Unknown

    Doe,

    U have mad a difference in do many many peoples lives,my daughter, ur friends, all the people who follow ur blog.. Please don't quit now especially if u have to pick me up at the aiport in Nov.

    xoxoxo
    Terry

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  2. AnonymousMay 18, 2011 at 7:03 PM

    Doe,

    I know its hard & I know its rough, I've been to the bottom, and felt like I was in the middle of a desert without knowing which way to travel.. I've been to the do's and don'ts , but made the choice to DO...a decision I have never ever regreted.

    Jerry

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  3. CeCeMay 19, 2011 at 5:15 AM

    I've found when things fall all the way apart, it's easier to put them back the way you want them. Seek and ye shall find.

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